Hear Me Roar!

I've been meaning to read The Celestine Prophecy by James Redfield for almost 2 years now. I knew Pappy, my daughter's paternal grandfather, had a copy but I was always too proud to ask to borrow it. Now that he has past, I thought my chance had past with him. I was assisting at his estate sale a few weeks ago, and while we were cleaning up, I ran across the book. His family graciously allowed me to have it and I starting reading it the very next day. I finished it that same day. I seriously couldnt put it down!

It presents many insights as part of a story that was as intriguing and relatable as it was an adventure. It linked with my heart quickly, as it spoke of "coincidences" and the importance in our lives. I recieved the book as part of a string of "coincidences," and they continued to multiply as I read more and more, just as the book said they would! Ive know for a long time there is no such thing as coincidences, that the Universe presents things in an interlinked, destined way. But to see it happening in my life! The perfect friend calling at the perfect time to talk about EXACTLY what you were just thinking about. A reminder to get my car registered days before a police officer pulls up behind me. And it has just snowballed, starting with the book.

My favorite Ah-ha! is about male and female energies and becoming a perfectly round human being. Shocker, I know. But I never truly understood this before! Each of us have male and female sides, with one side being more prominent than the other. I am female, but I need my male side to balance me out. I know that my tendancy is to fill that male side with a male.. resulting in a power struggling, chaotic, painful relationship that ALWAYS leads to heartbreak and disappointment. My half-self, female, with another half person-sure, together we make a whole but we only have the joy and health of one person as well, both fighting to be whole and take it all, at the expense of the other. NOT GOOD. So Ive know for a while that I need to be a whole, healthy person before going into a relationship with another whole, healthy person so we can be a super-person, as the book said.

What I havent realized is that in my study and work to be a whole person, I've forgot about an ENTIRE SIDE OF ME. My male side! I often project, see the need of men to embrace their feminine sides, knowing that is how they can acheive happiness and stop seeking attention from women. I see it perfectly clear for them! How ignorant and blind I have been to my own path! I didn't WANT to see where I needed work!

In fact, I have been so consumed by owning and being my female power, that I dont even know what is my male side. What are male qualities? Power? Strength? Leader? Even saying those I immediate think, those are womanly qualities too! I AM WOMAN, HEAR ME ROAR!

But.. they arent feminine qualities, are they.. and there is the difference. My masculine side is crying out for some attention. I am a mother, a nurturer, a lover. But in my quest to complete my circle, I must be my strong, ambitious, leader self as well! And that perhaps is the point of being WOMAN! ..to be both energies at once, not just my prominent female. And Ive been so confused this whole time!

This insight comes at the perfect time in my life, OF COURSE! Just as I am figuring out how to take on my life as an independent woman, I know I can do it as a whole, healthy human! Seriously, the book is awesome. And I hope my spirit travels with the book as it finds the next person to teach and enlighten, just as all my muses traveled and encircled me while I read every page.

Thanks Pappy, I love you!