"Those who make the worst use of their time are the first to complain of its shortness."
- Jean de la Bruyere
I will admit, my first reaction to The Love of My Life's father's passing was how cruel death is, how short life is. I had moments of anger that "I never got the chance.." I even used that phrase in my last post, but the reality is that I never took those chances. I never chose to step up and do what I knew was right.
I had day after day after days worth of opportunities to open myself back up to that man I love and admire and to let go of my damn pride. But I didnt. I squandered away the time I had with him, and yet I blamed it on fate! Its time I take full accountability for my poor choices and my poor relationships.
If you can hear me, please know that I love you so deeply. Im so sorry for all the ways I mistreated you, and I am so so so sorry that I let go of our bond. And thank you for the wonderful things you gave to this world: your poetic heart, your eye for beauty, your amazing and beautiful family. I am so honored and blessed to pass your name to my daughter.
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