Love like I have experienced is such a rare thing in this world. There is so much hate and destruction surrounding us every single day. The absolute BEAUTY that comes from such true and deep love keeps the world from become bleak and withered. The love that we have for each other is something only poets and Gods can imagine. I love him so fully that my heart instantly forgives and understands him. My ego may distract me from this truth, but truth it remains.
And I know that he loves me. He has shown that to me, daily. I have allowed myself to trust in that love, for the first time in my life. For the first time, I can honestly say that I trust in love. The times I slip into fear, I remember what FEAR stands for and choose to trust in love. I know he loves me the way I love him. I can feel it pulsating between us when I look in his eyes.
I dont know how to accept that love as gone. I dont know how to accept that it is over. Our love makes the world better, and the world deserves for us to cherish and blossom our love. I dont know how to let go of that little peice of perfection.
And perfection it is. We do have a perfect love for each other-it just gets hidden sometimes. It gets covered in dust and dirt and grime and greed and FEAR! But it still remains, perfect and beautiful.
We were both living with some expectations and fears. This was another thing that I was constantly checking myself for. Every time I was disappointed, I knew that it was a sign that I had expectations that werent being met. Proof, yet again, of how expectations are poison to Love. I also operated in fear instead of trust quite a few times. Im on my journey, on my ups and downs, and Im realizing again all the mistakes I didnt know I was making on my down part. We both took our love for granted and covered it with past, present and future garbage.
Yet its still there. It will always be there. I learned last time that he will never stop being the Love of My Life. There is no other. I know it with everything I AM. I dont think Ill ever be able to forget that, and let go of TRUE LOVE.
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